Now I'm Just Mad...

 

Not sure what it is, but you know how there are those certain people who you just expect will always be around?  I know things don't work that way, but when the world loses someone like that - it's just somehow more shocking, even surreal.  

 

I guess that's how I've always felt about Chris.  His music from Soundgarden made up much of the soundtrack for big chunks of my life.  Now I'm having trouble wrapping my head around this whole suicide business.  You can blame addiction, you can blame the Ativan, big Pharm., whatever...it changes nothing.  

 

To me, it's weird that someone would think of taking their life at age 52.  I mean, you've made it; you've succeeded; you've overcome the obstacles of youth.  It's time to enjoy your success and everything you've worked so hard for - EVEN IF you find yourself still facing challenges and with goals to reach - what you've overcome and learned so far in life helps to pave your way and make things at least a little easier.  

 

Ultimately, it is what it is, and what's done is done.  The only person who probably really understood what what going on was Chris.  

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Comments (28)

  1. willsblog

    It is weird that someone would take their own life. It is selfish, self-centered and arrogant but it goes along with addiction. Just as we’ve had plenty of information regarding cigarette smoking yet, people still do it. We’ve had plenty of information about the dangers of alcohol yet, people still drink. We’ve had plenty of information about the dangers of illegal narcotics, prescription medicines and many other addictions yet, people still think that they will be able to control them. We live in an arrogant, narcissistic and brain dead society where plenty of information exists but, that information is largely ignored by many.

    May 25, 2017
    1. morningafter7

      This is true, Will. I also had a strange thought about suicide this morning. I think sometimes when people contemplate doing it, for some reason they’re not thinking of it as being a permanent thing. Probably especially if they’re making chemically-enhanced decisions. I also don’t really understand depression as a mental illness, so I’m definitely no expert.

      May 26, 2017
      1. willsblog

        I would agree and I’m no expert either. What I do know if one is under the influence of drugs and/or alcohol they are MUCH more susceptible to demonic forces. The scripture warn us to be sober, steadfast and to not partake in things that will lead us down the wrong path. The Bible is full of instances where people had to do the right thing versus what was easy. Certainly if one is under the influence of something doing the right thing is not what they are thinking about.

        May 26, 2017
        1. morningafter7

          Someone told me that a long time ago – that being under the influence of certain drugs, you let the demons in.

          I read an article the other day about a lady who suffered from depression. She was not a drug addict. Even though she had a beautiful life and things were seemingly going great, she heard voices in her head one day – telling her to kill herself. She said it was very persuasive and felt like the thing to do. But she was able to overcome the voices with her own mind and tell herself that it was the sickness, and she quickly got help. I found that very frightening, and I wondered about where these “voices” were coming from. A creation of our own minds or something else? Either way her mind was strong enough to overcome it. Thankfully.

          May 28, 2017
          1. willsblog

            I have an idea where those “voices” were coming from….

            May 29, 2017
  2. macabre360

    Ok I’m not familiar with this guy or his band. Just didn’t come in on my radar at the time I guess. But the thing to me about all these deaths by souls like this. Be it by suicide or a slow spiral into the abyss. Is I can’t believe no one saw it coming. I mean the list of examples is pretty long and plain to see. Yet this keeps happening.

    May 26, 2017
    1. morningafter7

      This one especially had me floored – and many others as well for sure. Yes, he was in that genre of musicians where there were other deaths from suicide and overdoses and the like. But this guy seemed healthier than the rest, even as he got older; maybe he was just hiding it well. I agree that with something this extreme – you’d think people close to him would have seen the signs. You would think….

      So sad, how many artistic and talented people are, deep down, such tortured souls (it seems like).

      May 26, 2017
      1. willsblog

        There have been many “stars” and famous people who championed the “Just Say No” campaigns only to die of an overdose.

        May 26, 2017
      2. macabre360

        I don’t know. It’s not just or because there’re talented. It may seem like that because we know pf and are told about them ‘cause their in the public eye. Celebrities. We don’t hear ’bout the tortured nobodies much.

        May 27, 2017
        1. morningafter7

          That’s true, black bird. I didn’t think of it that way.

          May 28, 2017
  3. Somnium

    It is more a state of mind than a state of life. Success does not fix a broken mind.

    May 26, 2017
    1. willsblog

      “Success” is a perspective.

      May 27, 2017
      1. morningafter7

        Absolutely true. One person’s idea of success may be completely different from another’s.

        May 28, 2017
    2. morningafter7

      Right. At the end of the day, we all have very much in common. Where we really live isn’t in a fancy house or in piles of money. We live in our minds and bodies, and if something’s wrong there then nothing else matters until that gets fixed.

      May 28, 2017
      1. willsblog

        There are “fixes” that may look good to our flesh but aren’t in our best interest.

        May 29, 2017
        1. morningafter7

          I mean that we need to take care of our minds and bodies – be healthy, naturally – exercise and good nutrition, etc.

          May 30, 2017
          1. willsblog

            Those are all “good” things to do however, as scripture says, it is appointed once for a person to die and then the judgement. Scripture also tells us that the very hairs on our head our numbered so while taking care of our fleshly bodies is important, it will not prolong life it will only affect the quality of life.

            May 30, 2017
            1. morningafter7

              And the quality of life is everything. And while I currently don’t subscribe to any particular religion, I was raised on the premise that we should treat our bodies like a temple. Not that I have always followed that, but when I have, it’s made a big difference. :-)

              May 31, 2017
            2. willsblog

              What if a person gains the whole world and yet, loses his/her life? Gaining the whole world would fall under the category of “quality” and yet, the Bible tells us that gaining the “whole world” isn’t quality at all. I would once again point out that it’s NOT about “religion” nor denomination, it’s about a relationship with Jesus Christ.

              May 31, 2017
            3. morningafter7

              Where did the idea of gaining the whole world come from? I disagree that that falls under the category of “quality” of life. Quality of life to me has more to do with health and happiness, perhaps the people we surround ourselves with, but not GAIN. Gaining the whole world sounds more like greed. As far as a relationship with Jesus Christ? Well, that IS a religion isn’t it? There are religions that have this, and other religions that don’t.

              May 31, 2017
            4. willsblog

              “Where did the idea come from”? “For what profit is it to a man if he gains the whole world, and is himself destroyed or lost” – Luke 9:25
              Atheists and unbelievers are ignorant of scripture and God and thus claim that belief in Jesus Christ is the same as “religion”. Clearly it is not, never has been and never will be. So, to answer your question, NO that is NOT “religion” nor is it a denomination.

              May 31, 2017
  4. wonderwall79

    I’m not sure about anything in life, it does seem to be tho that these musicians who write, sing and inspire seem to be living the complete opposite way.!!!
    Tortured souls as they say
    Elvis, Micheal Jackson, cobain etc
    One of life’s many mysterys I guess

    May 30, 2017
    1. morningafter7

      You would think they would be loving life and living the dream, wouldn’t you wonderwall? I don’t get it at all. I hear about the pressures of fame, the music industry, etc., but then other successful musicians say they’re having a fantastic time! Some sort of chemical imbalance of the mind? Or? One thing for sure – many of these prescription drugs are BAD news, but the doctors keep on prescribing them. That’s why I try to go the all-natural route as much as possible. It’s nice to hear from you!

      May 31, 2017
  5. wonderwall79

    Yes one would think that to get the chance to inspire people all over the world would be awe inspiring but I guess perhaps maybe something was broken inside of them before or like you said Ma7 the drugs could very well create an imbalance, either way it’s a shame that these guys all went before their time as I’m sure they had a lot more to give so to speak.
    You can only wonder what songs they still had left in them.
    I read somewhere that in any one place it’s cemetery’s that have the most lost potential, lost dreams, lost inventions, lost ideas.!!
    I guess some people never got the chance to show us.!!!
    A pleasure Ma7 yes I have been having problems trying to log on but as well I’ve left my job and now driving in snowy alpine mountains in the winter

    June 01, 2017
    1. morningafter7

      Wonderwall, thanks for letting me know…I envy your adventures right now since I’m pretty much stuck where I’m at for at least a little while longer. Be careful driving in the mountains and take care of yourself. Still waiting for improvements to this site that don’t seem to be coming (the year is halfway done!) Take care…

      June 05, 2017
  6. wonderwall79

    Awww well thanks, haha don’t worry when I’m under the bus in mud and snow putting on chains you won’t envy me Your’ll be laughing at me haha
    but someone with your passion and heart I reckon your kindred spirit knows no boundaries perhaps your just waiting for an opportunity
    Thank you for the kind words I wish or rather hope life gives you an opportunity you deserve.!!!!!
    Yes this site won’t allow me to post any pictures at all or edit silly Internet

    June 07, 2017
    1. morningafter7

      Maybe you’re right that I wouldn’t be too envious of the mud and snow but I still know that you are in a place of astounding beauty and adventure, and of that I am definitely envious! Also of the freedom you seem to have! With that said – I am convinced that I’m in the absolute wrong place right now (and around the wrong people), but perhaps it’s some kind of lesson I need to learn or something I need to learn about myself. I do appreciate your words and will still be thinking of you out there!

      June 14, 2017
  7. RRoe

    Morningafter7, there are lots of people suffering. Money and fame does not protect one from suffering. There are ways to live a happier life, but it must start with knowing one’s self … too big a subject for here, but an important one. Hugs.

    June 21, 2017